Okay, so this is my first post in here and I was thinking: what should I post? So I decided to post about a matter that really botters me, which is being autistic in an ableist society and the desire of being viewed as normal.
Here in Brazil ableism is really normalized, people use the R word ALL the time and I have to deal with my classmates using the word "autistic" as a bad thing all day long, honestly, it sucks. Brazilian people are more accepting to those with adhd than those with autism, here both of them are treated as a joke, but only one of them is viewed as normal.
I got my autism diagnose when I was 13, and only my friends and family know about it, since I've seen how other people treat autistic people and it's definitely not cool, so I've decided to keep it to myself.
Although I'm "okay" with being autistic, sometimes I really wish I wasn't, I wish I was neurotypical.
That's because people will never see me as normal, people my age will always view me as weird and adults will view me as someone who needs help. That's something clear to me, but I'm sure that a neurotypical person wouldn't understand this feeling, wouldn't understand the feeling of wanting to be normal, of wanting to be accepted.
And that's it, I guess? Kind of a vent... I don't know, I just like talking about feelings and stuff, it's interesting how human beings function. But anyways! Thank you for reading!!